punky, you say : "maybe im just not good enough for him, maybe if id be beautiful, sexy, and rich he wouldnt leave me. i know how stupid that sounds, but come on, he wouldnt if i am, he practically be droolling all over."

You're still blaming yourself, many guys have wives that are fashion-model beautiful, and extremely rich, and pay for ecery wish they have. They still cheat because they are dogs.