Yeah...it's no mean feet really. Anyone who has been affected with anorexia knows it never really leaves you..you can only control it. For me,seeing the pain it caused my mom was one of the driving factors in my wanting to beat the disease. I still remember her look of horror when she realized what I had been taking great pains to hide! Insha Allah hope never to go down that road again hence I just stick to a low cal diet on most days but do an occasional binge :) xox