Mashallah..you are a brave girl and Inshallah you will find true happiness soon..Aameen! Allah promises us in the Quran "After hardship comes ease" and for every hardship we are tested with we are given two eases and unlike human beings who are prone to be ungrateful at times towards another God will reward any good we do for his sake with much better! May Allah grant you the best in this world and the next..aameen!