As a woman, I can understand how you feel.

But come on girl, if he really wants to marry you, he can marry you on SUNDAY! The Shariah Court is open for marriage morning and evening. Ask him to come with you anytime this week for marriage, I bet alot of Qler's will volunteer to witness you. Count me in.

If you need a friend to talk send me a message. I am Filipina Muslim also and married to Muslim Arab.