I have become stoic when I saw that nothing can be done. After a while I realized that resignation is my last option If I wanted to keep my family together. This post is just to better understand things as till now so many questions are still hanging in my mind...or perhaps just to ease the burden or maybe keep myself busy so as not to wait only to get frustrated...or maybe as a diversion.I'm trying to help myself otherwise I'd be on my lowest emotional level again.

Thanks for your comments.It's very enlightening. Please keep up the good work....I don't mind If you had to use a sword...:(