QATARIANA1 No need to say sorry...Just can't help how my system made me now....too sensitive...perhaps its the damn consequence of how I'd been treated...I had to have some defense that's why I abhor every single sign of rejection, disapproval,dislike and condemnation now."
- Yes, true.
Maybe some day when you are ready, you will recall what I said - because I speak from the perspective of a child with a mother like you.
She remains the only person I love more than anyone in the world and I fight to defend her against any other person, including relatives who seek to take advantage of her, etc.etc. But I see her "delusion" clearly - because I listen to other PoVs and decide for myself whether or not they apply to my own situation.
It hurts me to see her hurt, even though she has been stoic throughout my growing up years, not showing her feelings but all I'm saying is that kids pick up even non-verbal clues, esp. the ones very close to you.
Re: the raw time you're at now - totally understandable. But some day, I hope you move on from here. My Mother did to a large extent but it surfaces on and off, even now. (Hence the fact that I'm sitting several thousand miles away and not missing home. Not good, is it?). And the people who know me, know that money and position don't mean much to me so the real reason I'm here is deeply psychological.
No further comment.
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Don't want no drama,
No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama
QATARIANA1 No need to say sorry...Just can't help how my system made me now....too sensitive...perhaps its the damn consequence of how I'd been treated...I had to have some defense that's why I abhor every single sign of rejection, disapproval,dislike and condemnation now."
- Yes, true.
Maybe some day when you are ready, you will recall what I said - because I speak from the perspective of a child with a mother like you.
She remains the only person I love more than anyone in the world and I fight to defend her against any other person, including relatives who seek to take advantage of her, etc.etc. But I see her "delusion" clearly - because I listen to other PoVs and decide for myself whether or not they apply to my own situation.
It hurts me to see her hurt, even though she has been stoic throughout my growing up years, not showing her feelings but all I'm saying is that kids pick up even non-verbal clues, esp. the ones very close to you.
Re: the raw time you're at now - totally understandable. But some day, I hope you move on from here. My Mother did to a large extent but it surfaces on and off, even now. (Hence the fact that I'm sitting several thousand miles away and not missing home. Not good, is it?). And the people who know me, know that money and position don't mean much to me so the real reason I'm here is deeply psychological.
No further comment.
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Don't want no drama,
No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama