We'll it really all depends to my husband now. I will cling to him for as long as he remains steadfast to preserve the family.As what I've mentioned early on he starved me to death of his love and affection.....you can perceive that literally..I came to a point when I already wanted to cease to exist ...many times comtemplated suicide but the thought of my angels hindered me.If I were thinking of myself only...I got one solution only to end everything and stop my agony ...but I had to take this cross for my children.