Ernie, Alhamdulillah you've taken the first huge step in the direction of light. As we know we have to uphold the five pillars of Islam to be a true Muslim. To know, feel and see the beauty of Islam, look for an Imam who can and is willing to reveal to you Tareekad. As we know death comes to everyone young and old and we can't predict. If you're able to find one, understand the Five Pillars deeply, only then you will be considering yourself a true Muslim. Sorry for my long comments dear QL'ers. From where I came from in general, most Muslims do not bother to take the teachings of Islam deeply only just by simply learning Shariat. In Islam we're taught to learn SHARIAT, TAREEKAD, HAKEKAT & MAARIFAT. As we knew Hakekat & Maarifat will be bestowed by HIM upon understanding and practising Tareekad (this is from my experience and understanding). Insya Allah we'll be in touch again. Wassalam