'As for me... Allah knows best my situation and will InshAllah bless me
with his blessing as he sees fit and is better for me and my faith..
And he is the controller of all affairs and gives the blessings to
those he wills....'

'And I am very sorry to inform that this worldly life means very little to me!'

What if you are just wrong though PH? Would seem a sad waste.

I'm sure you will say you have faith.......but 

I don't go to mythical places with strange men.
-- Douglas Adams, The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul.