thanks buddy... well i can say that im gettin' there...im not completely ok but i know i will get over it... i wish i can share few details but it's quite complicated and u know that... im still hurting... well i can't blame anyone...i put myself in it... but still sometimes i can't help it but ask why everything seems so unfair... u know i tried hard to cover things up...to be bubbly, funny... coz i just don't want to be selfish and ruin the moments with those people i am with... but this time it's too painful... u know the feeling when u know in your heart that nothin will change a thing... even if u tried harder to have it... and keep it... nothin left for u to do but let go?... coz that's the best thing u can do? i'm really having a hard time dealing with it...good thing friends are there to listen and comfort me... somehow it helps... so thanks a lot...really...