Sis,

Really its hard to hear, and u described your pain like any thing, If god takes some one from you means He wanted to give you something better. I feel yoou should be sorrounded with Love which only your family can give, i advice if you can take ur hubb with you for vacation he also wont feel bad.

I appriciate you, beleving Dr, This that all different yes there are some real Drs in this world who really needs to save lifes. but there are are too many who just do their job as part of responsibility but not in helping or servising mind, so its better you get report and atleast get the knoledge what happened in your case, Why it happened, How to prevent such situation in future... its better you get some good suggession from Drs (Family Dr in your own place), as well as from here and have a nice vacation ahead come back with fresh mind.

I might be younger than you, So you might be knowing better than me, These are my openions only.

Regards

AG