well, what can i say,
when i converted to islam, i wanted it to be a surprise for my husband LOL i nearly gave him a heart attack .... anyway, u can't deny your religion. if anyone would tell me not to state i am muslim, i would tell them to go to hell. i am happy and proud i made that choice, but looks like u r not. u have to convert to islam for urself, not for anyone else. if u don't feel it in your heart, haram, u r not muslim at all.