My first marriage wasn't my choice and I wasn't ready for it, despite being very fond of (loving?) the chap I married. I should really have followed my basic instinct because I knew I felt more for someone else (even though the 'someone else' didn't seem to feel the same way back) and that meant my heart wasn't fully in tune with what I was about to do, but I went along with it and left after only 3 years of marriage.

The only good thing which came of that sorry situation is that I WAS happy for those 3 years, my ex-husband and I are still 'fond' of each other, and the one I felt more for eventually came back to me and I'm now married to him.

But for heavens sake! What a long and winding path to achieve happiness, with family upsets along the way which wouldn't have occurred had I NOT given in to my family in the first place!

Stick to your guns, spectra, do your own thing until you and your heart are ready for more.