Remember, experience is the only thing in life money can't buy. Experience is not only about running fancy softwares and drawing up colour histograms... it is about generating ideas, proposing simple solutions to complicated problems, it is about crisis management and risk management. You become a pilote only if you accumulate enough flying hours.

I think the people on this thread have given you valuable advice. It is your turn now to shift gear and make good use of the positive advice given to you. Good luck, you can do it!