Your First Love
Memories---- My first love
My first love was a teacher when I was in class 5. She was beautiful beyond words for me. Petite, long hair , chiseled features and spoke in soft musical tones. I never used to miss her classes and used to be eager to answer all questions. I followed her everywhere I could, even joined the Scripture Union special classes she taught and almost became a Christian. She got married and I was devastated and cried for two days and nights. Did not go to school for a week.
Decades later I met her by chance and my heart still skipped a beat. She still was awesome, had aged very gracefully and still looked like a million dollars. She did not recognize me as the boy who used for follow her like a puppy with stars in his eyes. But my heart overflowed.
The first girl I got involved seriously was a cousin couple of years older to me when I was 14 and the feelings were mutual. We became an item in the family gossip circles. I could not live without her. We were seriously involved for a couple of years. I even approached my aunt and ‘proposed’ marriage to her. My aunt knew what was going on and she said we will see later. I was willing to wait for her till eternity.
Marriage proposals started coming for her as she was a prize for anyone. Educated, tall, slim, golden long hair, twinkling mischievous eyes , her smile and peals of laughter were like music welcoming Angels and more so a lovely person. She kept on refusing till a point where her parents had to put their foot down and told her that she had to get married either to me or to any one of their choice. But my Dad shot down the whole thing saying better finish your school first and start earning before thinking of marriage. I was helpless.
She got married and now lives on a different continent. A few decades have passed. We have always kept in touch. We still call up each other and meet once every couple of years. Her husband is one of my best friends and I am her four kids’ godfather. More than anything her kids are very attached to me and insist on speaking to me once a month at least. They tell me of all their triumphs and setbacks, their personal feelings and desires. I am more like a best friend to them.
Like many times before I am in a pensive mood today recalling all those memories of my first real love and what it could have been if it was otherwise. Circumstances never gave me a chance and I do understand Dad was right at that time.. I still grin wryly when the memories come flooding back.
The internet and QL is one forum where there is a lot of anonymity and gives space to confide and express our feelings. How about you?? I am sure everyone has had their moments of first love and first infatuation or puppy love. It would be lovely to share. Not to ridicule one another but to share in camaraderie. As it is life is laughing at all of us.
There is a saying that your first love is always the one that was the best in its innocence and you can never forget it. Ever.
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It would be lovely to share our special moments of childhood when we grow up reading books of romantic idealism and stories of how the lover boy get his princess in the end. Or the girl gets her Prince Charming. In reality it would be different.
How about you?? Who was your first love??
FU You are not 'unlucky' my friend. The easiest thing today is to get laid. But you are the one who held principles higher than any instant pleasure. Lived by them with no regrets.
For many of us the getting 'laid' part just about anywhere anyplace anyone is does not resonate with our kind of thinking because for us it is another manner of exploitation which is unacceptable.
Another thing is 'getting laid' with no emotional involvement is an exercise in futility---isn't it?
L is just an illusion covered by needs
don't trust in something called love because you will be screwed ;)
if you are talking about infatuations in school days, it was definitely my english teacher in the secondary school.
i realise now that i hated her husband for no reason..:)
No FU what you are looking at now is systemic of how it works today. Everything is fast and transitory. Instant gratification. The values have not gone away entirely but just subdued for some time.
Friends are in name only and can be passed up just as acquaintances. One day all the blessing that will remain with anyone will be in the form of people who love you and the dear friends who stand by you. No matter what.
lol FU
I'am quite unlucky Mehnis. I fail to act when I love someone. Others act fast and get laid even if they don't love ;)
I think getting laid is more important these days than love and people get bored with friends very fast.
At that time I suppose the courageous early bird got the girl but the silent admirers remained as such.
Yes Mehnis..You are right. It was during my school days and I still have good memories of being so silent.lol
Agentpaper that is the hardest part meeting the one you had loved and planned to grow old with her as a married person. But then life is like that. You are right. You always wanted her to be happy. If she is now then you just bear the pain and walk away wishing her all the best.
my first love hmmmm wait let me think ..lool
My first love already got married and we saw each other on the mall yesterday that is Thursday, we both change a little i can say got intellectually matured. How are you? is the first question as i recall, still "single" is my reply.
Two years we shared the precious love, how can i forget the only thing I had. I just can't tell this exact word, that I was "lost without your love"
As I walked across the hall, I was smiling, but inside the pain again awaken, in my heart the same pain,I remember of losing the one I love.
to YOU...wishing you all the love. I am happy for you.
FU I expected you to be more forthright. I am sure you must had you first real serious romantic experience very early possibly in your school days itself.
Hey Stealth this is no copy paste. I was just musing about the past and starting writing thinking that there might be some people having has such experiences. My true story buddy.
And hey Soniya my wife has not read this and I hope she will not;))
Mehnis, i hope ur wife hasn't read this post of urs..lol
I would prefer recalling "funny" moments( with ur ex or friends) and laugh about it,rather than being poetically "nostalgic"..
from where did you copy paste this?
hmmm well, it feels good to recall first love....Mine was in my graduation and was not successful but yes I must say today I am with a person who loves me alot. Anyhow you should be with the person who loves you the most...
I am trying to recall my first love,cant remember man..!
My first and last love is here with me thankfully helping me to cope with this. Thanks for your wishes :-)
Is that a new thing, getting your first love being confirmed on paper? lol
Just hang on I am sure all will work out for you..:)
Just waiting for confirmation of some important papers. It feels like I have been waiting for ages. Hope to get some news soon. Waiting is the most difficult thing to do in life. I am losing patience it seems :-(
so why one week? missing someone are we?
How I wish I could....Not yet.
why you leaving for your annual vacation?
Why what else do you have in mind drmana. you naughty girl..
Let me just put by leather gear on to make it exciting for you.. You get the whip and cream..:)
Nah UKeng, just make next one week disappear just like that...I will be more than happy. Getting bored and impatient waiting:(
Such a boring day today and here everyone talking about their broken heart :-(((
My first loved turned sour when I called her sister sweet..:)
i cant remember my first love...only the second, third, fourth etc.. lol
My first love was Bella's sister...she was gorgeous.
I loved her so much tat i left her....:)
My first love story was totally silent. No one said anything and no one heard. Obviously it didn't last long.
LP I am afraid to venture out in this area. I have screwed up my life pretty good already, don't need another headache.
Waiting? - Not a very 'male' attitude, WK.
LP that's not a bad thing now is it?
If you just 'wait', nothing will happen, WK.
Still waiting :)
my first love was 2wards a bollywood actor: anil kapoor... i still liks him...
I still remember my first love... Her first words were "Baa"
In love with my sweetheart wife Chinx_lady. But then memories do have a knack of just popping up. Today is just one of those moments.
you ask about first love mehnis...only him.but infatuation, well too many to mention...hmmmm i think your in love with someone nowadays....;)
That is great Chinx_lady but you must have had a childhood infatuation. Maybe a cousin or an actor someone for whom your heart used to beat faster
definitely my hubby...:)