LOVE NOTES: Love is exciting as they say....

I don't know how to start this story after I called that Lady which is a friend of mine... as we discuss about her problems and later on send me this letter, i asked her permission to post or to send her letter, so here it is and I want all of you guys to seriously advice this lady... I maybe send this link to her... so please give her a good advise...

Love is exciting as they say. A feeling of strong attachment induced by that which delights or commands admiration; preeminent kindness or devotion to another; affection; tenderness. Isn’t sweet?

Kuya Nep, I am writing to you with a completely shattered heart. I want to share my story and I am dying to hear your advice as I am struggling to fight my emotion.

I’m a 27 years old girl. And I am still in love with my ex –bf which I had a relationship with almost 8 years, who broke up with me because of another girl. I found him cheating many times but I’d still fight for our love. When I feel that I wanna give up at the end he still chooses me. Our relationship is very complicated yet when we were together it just feels so right that’s the reason why I think I am deeply in love with him. I was already losing myself that time. It came to a point that I attempt to do stupid stuffs in front of him. I really love him so much and I’m really hurt of the fact that he’s not the type of guy who would fight for me, rather he will wait for me to always to do something for us because that’s how we started. I spoiled him too much, treated him so much like a baby. He really didn’t told me the reason why we ended this way but I know the mere fact that it is all because of his gf now who also work at the same company with him.

I was so hurt that I didn’t speak anymore and he ended up walking out leaving me at our house. I have so many questions why all of these happened. Tears are falling on my eyes. Our family already knew about our situation and they are also affected. I stopped communicating with him and really tried to move on because it hurts so badly. It was already a year, but still I can’t forget him. It was like something is still connecting between us even if we haven’t talk for almost a year. Recently, having the thought that I am ok now and accepted the fact that he already had someone, I forwarded him a quote and for some reason we met. I still had the walls that I built for almost a year when we broke up. I thought to myself, that if he chooses the girl instead of me then I’d be happy for them. But recently we met again; he said I needed to make up to him because he treated me for dinner the first time we went out. That time I was so happy. He talked about how we used to be before and why lastly, he told me that he still loves me. I feel great but I got confused. And I really don’t know what’s in his mind.

After a week, I found out that he was now engaged with the girl. I don’t know what so say. I am speechless. My heart is aching to death. I asked him to meet up again, I told him I still love him but I got no reply. I am really torn now and I don’t know what to do. I even beg for him to come back but I heard nothing. Its so hard to be torn whether you’d still fight for someone who really did hurt you and broke you into pieces, but the fact that it was like that you still love him or let him go even if you know there might be a little chance if you still fight because at some point you feel that he still has feelings for you.

What will I do now?????

Sincerely yours,

Ms. B. Robins