Hi dear. Challenges are part of our lives. We encounter them every day but what differs is our response to them. When they come at a time when we are weak, when we don't have enough resources and when we have no one else, it hits hard and it feels like all hope is lost. I feel you because I have been through the same thing. But life is beautiful so find it within yourself to get up and face life. Surround yourself with positive things, with positive people and with things that make you smile. Find a new hobby. Pamper yourself by getting a massage, getting a haircut, go shopping and eat freely (even chocolates, lots of 'em!) And most of all, pray and believe that you can do it. All the best!