"All I want is to have incredibly violent sex," she told her therapist, who wasn't shocked.

"She said, 'Sure, do you have someone in mind who can do that for you?'" said McClelland. "She didn't blink."

And McClelland did -- Isaac, an old friend, someone she'd had rough sex with before. Someone she trusted.

"I needed to confront my extreme fears and nightmares," she said. "I needed it to be violent and forceful."

hmm..anybody looking for a volunteer ;)