tinker, what i did yesterday is i do a total make over of myself and i did felt good after that..seeing myself in the mirror with the new aura (though still with sad eyes) makes me feel great..i agree with you that i have to divert my attention into something better than wallow and cried over spilled milk..i have to convince myself that things happened differently despite we don't want unwanted changes in our lives..it's so hard..indeed..but life has to go on for me and i have to move on..i think i just need to a break and think things over..