you're very fortunate..but maybe this is my fate..you are right..it's all upto me..it's just very sad and very hard to accept..i dont know really where to go from here..

i dont want to be just an option..i want to feel also that i am important to him..but if the only reason why im hanging unto him is now gone, then, it's time to let go and forget those bittersweet memories..

i will rest everything to God..