you remind me of my friend.. anyway, that will NEVER work out.. okay, perhaps 1 out of a hundred people who got the same situation as u do had worked out that kind of relationship.. but really, believe me. Ditch the girl and find someone who's REAL!
there are a lot of fishes in the ocean.. ones who you can make us of you 5 senses and not only 2 (eyes and ears)
;-)