maybe it was strange or maybe not...
maybe i was not serious enough to find the right spiritual shelter that is just right for me...
If i may ask...did you ever experience to be lost in the woods...where there is nothing there but only your fears of not having the right instinct that will guide you on the right path.
I never thought i'll be experiencing this...at this age ,at this very certain time of my life when everything went against my dreams.
I went to JIL but nothing good happen.

Well for those who are living a healthy spiritual life...it is so easy to tell the difference between whats good and bad...
but till when?

This is a passing thing...i believe.