i rather go with the first one, dying with cancer is a sure pain.. a lotta pain actually, though i can deal with that no matter what, no questions asked! but how'bout our love ones? i really don't have the guts to see them sharin' the pain im sufferin' and getting 'em hurt.... i hate that feeling and i hate goodbyes too..

"Some of the worst things imaginable have been done with the best intentions"...