shoe, yep it was more of a statement than a question...
and it is only YOU who knows about YOU...

didn't it ever cross yer mind that YOU may have been happy afterall?? by making others happy?

maybe the REAL happiness was unconsciously covered by DISCONTENTMENT(on yer part) because you felt that you were not doing yer best...

shoe, how do you define HAPPINESS??? by how you define it, that's where you should start...
or maybe about time for you to REDEFINE happiness...