From what you said ... I can understand that ... you were spending some nice moments, good time ... how .. I won't go into details as the the full story is written there, just go between the lines and you will read it all ... Sometimes ... we have to pay for those happy moments of our lives, how? It depends ... some pay it by sadness, some pay it by being separated , some pay it suffering alone of loneliness and the list is long ...

In our Arabic culture, if the people would be too happy ... they would be wondering and asking god for something good to happen ... as after those moments of happiness ... something should always come to ruin everything ...

It is not that easy to just ignore, or read the signs ... sometimes we want only to be happy at the moment, never think of the future ... ignoring the signs and praying that nothing will happen ... regardless of .. it is so clear that something bad in the way ... but for the sake of being happy ... we will put those emotions, thoughts and signs a side an continue ... until what?

Until we wake up one day to face the cruel reality ... something in your head ... maybe a weak sound or voice of wisdom telling you ... I was trying to save you all of this, why you did not listen? Another voice is saying ... nvm .. it is my fault ... always got the higher voice, but now ... I can't say a thing ... The first is the brain voice, the second is the heart voice indeed ...

Hope that you would feel ok later ... Sorry again for being honest ...

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. (Gautama Buddha)