Keep the faith, I eckon from time to time all of us go through/ have been through rough patches and bouts of depression.
my wife and I were pregnant with our 4 child and the doctors scared the living daylights by saying there was a very high chance we'd have a mongloid baby.those were tense days as you can imagine, but in the end faith triumphed and we now have a very beautiful baby girl. Alhamdollilah.It says in the holy Quran, no soul is burdened with more troubles than it can bear( as close a translation as I possibly could)
Trust the Almighty, InshaAllah these times will also come to pass.