hello depressed,

i cant say better than what our friends have said here, but just i want to highlight and make you realize of something that, commiting a suicide is NOT gonna solve any problem, infect it will create more problems, and you will be leaving that problmes to your wife and children as your 'legacy'.

a problem will always be remains as problem until it is being solved. so if you want to overcome this problems,then you have to accumulate and untilize your strengths to tackle the problmes, NOT to make it as a reason to lose your hope and strengths.

one thing you need to have a faith in heart is: "God has promised to us that He wouldnt test His slave more than how much we can cope, for He is the Most merciful to His slave, than a mother to her son..." so why despair? perhaps,you should look up to people who are suffering and struggling in their life more worst than you, then hopefully, you will realize and be thankful with how much still better your situation actually is.

so try you best to tackle the problems in a professional way, and step by step. to me, you are not that depressed with your own slef, but you feel like- after everything you have sacrificed and devoted to your family, things doesnt turn out as how you had expected it to be. so this is when you give a way for the feeling of depression to affect you.

here, you are now married and you have wife and children, so just focus and do what is best for them. if your brothers and siaters,or mothers are not satisfied with you and your wife, then let them be...! in this life, we cannot afford to satisfy everyone's heart, so as a result there are partition of people: those who like us and those who dislike us. because the fact is, human heart cannot be satisfied forever, the more you do for them, the more they demand from you. they tend to stretch us beyound our level of elasticity. and they are just like diving in a salty sea, the deeper they dive, the more thirsty they become...

the thing is, you are too kind, so it makes you feel that you are the one who is guilty in this matter-thats why you are depressed. perhaps because of your kindness before, thats why they dare to step on your head now. but i guess thats enough! now, let them realise that you have limit and teach them not to overstep that border!

so try your best to overcome and adapt this problems in a realistic way. never lose your hope in striving for something, because who knows, if you are only one step close to the achievement, so never step back!!

if you wana die, die with DIGNITY, NOT by commiting suicide which resemble like a 'death animal'.....! apart from that, it is strictly forbidden in our religion.

---------------where there is friendship, there is NO 'hurt feelings':)--------------------