i still will try my best to reach my dream, i also believe a hard environment can give me a better chance to improve myself,learning how to be myself under pressure,learning how to live happily when i am really lonly,learning how to overcome different kinds of problems in a country not friendly to Chinese people.

the reason i why i choose the place is because i once love someone in the city, i just want to feel the city by myself, not because still love or hate him.i really have too much questions about the cultural difference,there are too much "why" in my head,i can't understand why he will think this way or say such word, so i want to find the answer by my own eyes,my own feeling.

i know i must do it,but i don't know when i can reach it, only God knows!