Aisha you only mean it because you want to. Let's take a more extreme example....say you were brought up in a small south east asian hill tribe as a buddhist.

Would you then have found islam? If so how? and why? Your family are buddhists your whole culture is buddhist what would sudddenly compel you to break free?

I am not saying you are being deliberately dishonest but I think that you are unwilling to admit that in these, hypothetical, circumstances it is in fact highly likely that you wouldn't be muslim.

You love islam so much now to a large degree because of your culture and upbringing. To suggest otherwise is being a little naive.

I do not want to get into a slanging match about the merits of the various religious codes because as you know I don't believe in any of them. I would like though for you to perhaps, even partially, acknowledge that religion is largely determined by your culture. This makes it seem unfair if one was considered right and one wrong from god's perspective.

If there is a god, which I don't think there is, he or she would surely not persecute those for worshipping that which they had been indoctrinated (just like you have been with islam) is the correct path.