foolishheart, nowadays, your brain is the sharpest weapon you can use to decide.
Your heart may feel some sort of pain but it can't make any good judgement whenever its in-love.
I can say you're already an adult (as per your age), given freewill to decide on matters concerning your future.
Clean up the garden mate, you may see some other good plants sprouting. :p
i'm praying for you.