Maybe you do dont like what I advise - but here's it as a well wisher anyway. - Work out your marriage problems first as it takes 2 minutes to break a marriage but gives years of pain. See a counsellor with your husband discuss with him - do what it takes from your end so that tomorrow you dont feel there is something you could have done. Jobs you will get anytime. Do think about this as \i have been through it more than once!!!!