best thing that has happened to me

“It's hard to tell who has your back, from who has it long enough just to stab you in it....”
― Nicole Richie

Love is the best thing that has happened to me
maxisking|v0|Aug 2, 2012

Don’t know where I should start. Right at this moment I am pitch dark blank. Life has taken an unwanted turn which cannot be justified at all. The emotions, feelings, and affection; all are jammed inside of me. Cannot make out what being happy is like and I don’t know either, what I am being sad for. Every day and every night, every second and every minute am just low, full of sorrow and full of guilt. If I had known anything I’d tell her but that’s how it is, dark and sorrowful.

Broken is my heart into a million pieces, which I cannot fix for myself, it keeps beating but tends to make more wounds inside. The more I think the faster it beats, and the faster it beats, the nervous system cannot handle it. It’s like a cycle which goes on and on and on, without any considerations.

It wasn't like this before, it was different. Full of live, happy, and free. Since it has been occupied by her it is not how it used to be.

Ten years ago, when I saw her for the first time, I knew it was love. I knew it was her with whom I’d spend my entire life with. I knew she was my savior. I did whatever I could to impress her, to get her attention, to get close to her and get inside of her heart. I never wanted to get away from her, always wanted to be so close, so cozy. I remember when she called one day and said, “I have something to tell you.” It was scary. I was holding my breath for the whole day, was in the same situation I am now. Didn't know what she had to tell me. I guessed. Thought as much as I could about it, failed. Talked with her sister, she had no clue. Still was wondering.
I knew that moment and I agreed for myself that whatever she had to say to me, I didn't care. The only thing I knew was I was sure that we were meant to be together and GOD had made us the perfect match.

Suddenly as she arrived at the bus stop while I was still thinking, I was scared but blushing. I was blind but staring. I was deaf but trying to listen. And this moment my heart had already been gifted to her. It happened. The more I thought the faster it was beating, and the faster it was beating, the nervous system could not handle it.

We walked towards her place, talking, laughing, and staring. Question still in my mind, what did she have to tell me? Her sister and friend was gossiping and walking in front of us. They’d look at us laughing and smiling from distant. I was clueless.

Right in between somewhere near to her home, I had gone crazy and mad, laughing and consoling myself that I finally had won something in my life, just when she said, “I think I am in love with you.” I wanted to hear it from her again and again, it was just not enough. Right then I promised to myself that I’d always take care of her and always love her truly, deeply and madly. I yelled, “She loves me. She loves me.”

We both were too eager to go out, the very same day we went officially on our very first date, risking everything. It was an amazing evening. First into the ditch together, then candle light dinner and racing towards home. It was unforgettable. WOW!

After I dropped her I had no clue how to get back home, I was broke, but again it was love and who cared.

To be continued…

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