Landlover,I understand. I felt like that for a very long time. But the way I/you/anybody feels, especially since the feelings are negative, are of not good use.
The only thing that CAN help, is to concentrate on the positive only...as much as possible. The more power is given to the negative, the more powerful it becomes...vice versa with the positive.
Unfortunately, most people's thoughts are drawn to the negative, hence, most people's actions are negative.