oh my baby, it's really a struggle!!! between a society imposed standard and sense of freedom and individuality. It is really an envy wherein you can see other Western girls, Leb'nse, Phils, etc....walk along with sorts of freedom and liberation. They can easily express their thoughts & talents by way of fashion and lifestyle, career, personal preferences, hang-outs and alike. The bottom-line is we need to respect, whatever or wherever society you belong to. Think again, and you might also see the things that make other girls like you HAPPY & CONTENTED with what they are and to where they belong to. Good Luck.