A Letter for Daddy

I was cleaning today and I found a picture of you,
It caused all these memories and feelings to start,
Visions of the times we shared, good and bad ones too..
Then there were the ones from the day my life was ripped apart.Tears now begin to fall,
I can still remember the sound of my breaking heart,
As the doctor told me in that hall,
That with this life you are now about to part.
I cried a million tears that day,
It was like a dream gone bad,
It had me asking god how could he do me this way,
Why would he want to make me so sad ?
Of all the people in the world why were you his choice,
I wish I could have told him first that I needed you too,
If only I could hear the sound of your voice,
Calling my name, saying hello or even I love you.
I wonder if he thought of how I’d feel,
I know I’m told he always picks the best,
I’m also told in time my heart will heal,
But why you above the rest ?
Didn’t he know what we’d been through,
That we had just gotten it together again,
That I had finally gotten you to say you love me too,
I could finally say “That’s my dad he’s such a great man”.
Daddy I hope you know I only wanted you to be proud,
Daddy’s girl is what I wanted to be,
If you would have only said it out loud,
Maybe things would have been different for you and me.
I was guilty to,
Always doing everything wrong,
And then saying I was taking after you,
Why did it take us so long?
To figure out,
That I was your little girl,
And that without a doubt,
You were my world.
I miss you more every day,
The memories and pictures are all I have now,
I cherish them more each day,
Someday, I don’t know when or how,
We will meet face to face,
And I will see you,
And we will share your special place,
And once again I can hear you love me too.

I will love you forever.. Daddy

--Tami Whitehurst (author)---